Today, I made the not so difficult decision to shut down my Etsy shop, for good.
I will also be updating my website in the coming days to reflect the changes, as I have already adjusted my Facebook page, if you are following me there you will notice this.
My decision to do this is something I had been considering for a long time. Here is the thing, my work has always been centered around women, supporting them and lifting them up, but now comes the time when I have to lift myself up.
The greatest tragedy is when women don’t support other women.
Maybe it’s the patriarchal structure we are in, internalized misogyny, who knows.
I am a mother, I have two children, I also have hopes and dreams. I am tired.
I will be focusing on my writing, and being a recluse, because this is what is comfortable for me. I appreciate those who have supported me, I wish you knew what it means to me that you did, I’ll never forget it.
I truly gave it my all, and from my heart, but it wasn’t meant to be.
I will continue to support women, especially fellow women of color, particularly those rooted with deep ancestral wisdom such. With all the fluff and whitewashing out there, particularly in spiritual circles, we need these powerful women.
This week I am using the gorgeous Nature’s Whispers deck by Angela Hartfield, with incredible artwork by Josephine Wall.
Have a look at the cards and decide which one, left to right, 1, 2, or 3?
Now scroll down for your message!
Keep your eyes on the prize! That goal you are working towards requires nothing less than focus and determination. Visualization is a powerful tool to help you achieve your dreams, use it regularly to keep you going, and keep you motivated, especially on days when you need a little extra push.
It’s normal to get stuck in a rut, or the routines of everyday life. This can drag you down, and lower your energy, don’t let it! Be spontaneous, do something a little differently, or a lot differently. Bringing some excitement and adventure to your life is the best way to lift your mood, and see things in a different way.
Are you finding yourself having a little difficulty getting something done? Maybe you are bored with the process, and need to approach things with fresh vision. Try a different way of doing things rather than the norm. Change things up with your routine a little, it doesn’t have to be drastic, baby steps are more than enough to ease you into it.
To book your own full reading with me, visit my Etsy shop.
I hope this has helped, and I wish you a beautiful week!
As promised, I am going to do a blog series about the decks I use to replace my Doreen Virtue ones. Pretty much everyone in the spiritual community is aware of what happened with Doreen, I blogged my own thoughts about it here. Now, I haven’t gotten rid of her decks (yet), but I don’t feel right using them at all. I know some people make the very valid point that at the time of their creation, she was a different person, the Doreen we all know and love, who swam with dolphins, personally that’s the one I hold on to in my mind. Sadly, for me, too much has happened at this point, and I simply cannot continue using her decks. So, without further rambling, I am going to discuss the Goddess Guidance Deck, by Doreen, illustrated by several artists, and the Goddess Oracle by Amy Sophia Marashinksy, illustrated by Hrana Janto.
There are similarities, notably the vast array of pantheons represented. I will be sharing several images from both decks so that you can see the diversity offered. It’s wonderful for someone looking to connect with Goddess energy, but are unsure of which one. It’s a great way to learn about different stories of the Goddess.
The difference for me right off the bat, is the art. The Goddess Oracle has one illustrator, the The Goddess Guidance has multiple, and sometimes it can be problematic, in that the cards aren’t coherent, if that makes sense. Another note on the art, I find the Goddess Oracle to be more natural and realistic looking, as well as different age ranges which appeals to me personally. I do find the Goddess Guidance pretty, and I love most of the imagery, but I prefer the Goddess Oracle.
The Goddess Guidance has a short message under the imagery, the Goddess Oracle, only a key word.
The guidebook with the Goddess Oracle, I find to be excellent. There is a poem/prose, lengthy explanation of who the Goddess is, a message, and a ritual. I find if you are walking a Goddess path, this is excellent to use within your own spiritual practice. I have personally used the ritual suggestions, and found them to be wonderful. In contrast, the Goddess Guidance has a shorter explanation of the Goddess and a message. This is good if you are starting out, perhaps, or just need a quick message, but, it doesn’t go too deep.
To wrap things up, I highly recommend the Goddess Oracle. It is not only esthetically stunning with its artwork, but the guidebook is absolutely excellent, and very beneficial to anyone interested in connecting with the Divine Feminine.
I will now post a few more images enlarged, so that you can see the different in artwork and the various pantheons.
I hope you found this helpful. Much love, and many blessings.
Happy New Year, my loves. May 2018 bring you all you hope for, and may all of your dreams come true.
The first blog post of the year, is going to be a heavy one. It was inspired by a dream. Last night, my Aunt Layla came to me, and every time she does, it is profound. She was wearing all white and looked so happy, I know that means she is in Heaven and doing well, this soothed my heart. She wiped my tears, as I was crying, and she basically told me, “fuck what they think”, I was a little taken aback, and when I woke up, I had to laugh. But, that was the kind of relationship we had. I know what she was saying, and what she was talking about, everything had led up to this point and I needed to hear it from her.
I have to write about my life, I have to be ruthless, and fearless.
Fuck what they think.
For so many years, I have been powerless, for so long others have controlled the narrative of my life, and where it was headed. The future doesn’t look bright for me, in fact it looks very uncertain, but that’s ok.
I have always known I wouldn’t live to ripe old age, it’s not being fatalistic, it’s just a knowing I have had, ever since I was very young. Perhaps this is why I have always sought out the Divine and felt a close connection to other worlds.
There had been this horrific fear that after I die, someone else will control the narrative, someone else will tell my story, and they will sugarcoat it to absolve themselves and others. I cannot let that happen, I must tell it now, and people must know, while I am still here.
I don’t fear death, I fear that people won’t know who I really was, and what happened to me.
I fear being forever voiceless, and lost amongst the sea of my sisters who were also left voiceless.
If only one woman could learn from what I endured and make a better choice, it is all worth it. So, I will write, and write, and write, until my Aunt Layla comes to pick me up.
I send you my love, and thank you for reading xoxo
I am talking about Extra-Terrestrial life. Not just the possible plant and water on other planets, but living breathing, non-human entities that are beyond our earth’s atmosphere.
I think we are at a major turning point on this planet of ours, I think things have gotten so crazy that the obvious cannot be hidden for that much longer. I do think that we had “help” protecting the planet around the time the atom bomb was invented, when we became a threat not only to ourselves, but to our galaxy. I also believe we are in trouble again, and we just cannot go it alone.
CNN reported about the existence of a program conducted by the US Department of Defense that monitored UFO activity, allegedly the program no longer exists, so why tell us about it? Because the program has been in existence for much longer than stated in the video, and it is ongoing.
Then today, Space X sent up a rocket that illuminated the California sky, it looked suspiciously like unidentifiable craft. Why did they do that? To gauge the public’s reaction.
Look at all the movies that revolve around this subject, a majority of them are meant to terrify you, but in truth, there are both malevolent and benevolent beings, just like on our planet. The governments want you to believe you need protection, so they terrify you into justifying military spending, you know, kind of like the “war on terror”?
Look at the timing of the return of Star Wars, the obsession around it in popular culture, the archetype of the Jedi is a powerful one indeed.
I believe it is the epitome of self-centeredness to believe we are the only beings that exist in these numerous galaxies. I believe there are many, many different species, in different star systems, I also believe in the goodness of a majority of them.
I am not afraid, and you shouldn’t be either. Maybe you have off world origins too. Maybe your mission is Planet Earth, and you just haven’t discovered it yet.
More to come. In the meantime, keep and open mind and heart.
If you follow my Facebook page you will have seen my “pick a card” post for your Solstice messages. Here they are! (I have used the (Everyday Witch Tarot by Llewellyn)
From left to right:
Card 1 – The Devil – ‘Tis the season to be gluttonous? I know this is the time of year where things may happen in excess. You eat too much, drink too much, and of course, spend way too much. By the time January rolls around you may be regretting your decisions. Remember everything is best in moderation, don’t give in to temptation, if your intuition is telling you not to. Give yourself the best chance at a fresh start in the new year.
Card 2 – Judgement – As this year comes to a close, take time to assess your life, decide what will follow you into 2018, and what you will leave behind in 2017. Life is all about cycles, the natural ebb and flow. Take whatever valuable lessons you may have learned along with you, and be kind to yourself for any mistakes you have made. We are forever learning and evolving, that’s how we know we are alive.
Card 3 – The Five of Swords – My first instinct when I saw this card was possible issues at the Christmas dinner table discussing politics! Unless you’re feeling brave, perhaps stick to talking about the weather if other topics get people riled up. The card is all about cooperation, maybe your work environment has grown a little too competitive and you find it toxic, take a step back to reassess the situation, and decide how you want to proceed. It’s always better to work together to achieve the same goal, rather than work against each other.
I hope these messages have helped you, and I wish you the very best for this Yule and Christmas season, sending you my love, as always.
As Christmas/Yule quickly approaches, I have felt myself wondering what this magical season means to me, and why it’s so special. I grew up in a non-Christian household, but have been celebrating Christmas in my own adult life, for different reasons.
As a young child in Toronto, I have memories of decorating a tree with my family. I especially remember my father, how tall he was, and how tall the tree was. I remember us shoveling snow, and then snow ball fights would ensue, I remember the laughter and the happiness I felt for those fleeting moments. After moving to Los Angeles, the dysfunction and abuse started, and I was never as happy as I was in Canada.
As I expanded my own spirituality, I became attracted to earth based practice, and the Wheel of the Year. Yule corresponding with Christmas, and the return of the Sun resonated with me. I begin to incorporate that into my yearly celebrations, honoring the Earth’s cycles, and my own.
The subject of Hygge is also very relevant, as found in this article,” Create your own Hygge. The darkest time of the year is prime time for “hygge,” one of those Scandinavian words that translates somewhat akin to coziness. Hygge can be anything from playing a board game with the family in front of the fireplace, reading a good book curled up under a cozy blanket on the couch, or having a delicious hot chocolate, after returning in from the cold. And lighting candles – lots of candles – not so much to fight the darkness, but enough to make the most of it.”
To me, that is what it is all about, hibernating with your loved ones, reviewing the year that is coming to an end, and thinking about the future. This family togetherness is something that I was hell bent on cultivating for my own children, since I didn’t have it in my own life. This time of the year is simply perfect for that.
No matter what your beliefs, everyone can appreciate the natural cycles of the planet. We look forward to the Solstice, the return of the Sun and the return of life and hope. It’s a wonderful reminder that nothing lasts for ever, nothing stays the same. If you are experiencing hardship, it will also pass, take heart, I know this all too well.
I wish to take this moment to wish you all a blessed Christmas/Yule/Winter Solstice. I hope you are surrounded with the ones you love, and feel nothing but joy for the rest of your days.
While I was away, contemplating life following a mini health crisis, I decided that I needed to find something to do that would keep me busy, but also nurtured my creativity. I stumbled upon the fabulous Art/Junk Journal life.
I was at one of my favorite shops with the kids (Flying Tiger) to pick up some halloween deco, and I also picked up some stickers and other cutesy stuff that I wasn’t quite sure what I was going to do with.
Now, I cannot for the life of me recall how I came across Sugar, also knows as Liz Drake, but she was so incredibly inspiring with her fabulous art, and made everything seem SO easy and accessible, I knew I had to give this junk/art journaling lark a try!
What better time then between October and December, when everything is so fun and festive, to get going on some awesome art projects? I gathered up the stickers, glue, scrapbook paper and paint that I had, and went to work.
It was so liberating to do something without expectation, with no attachment to the outcome. It also didn’t cost much, only less than 10 euros on stickers and washi tape. At the end I had a wonderful little messy work of art. I uploaded a quick flip through of my Halloween journal on to Youtube, if you want to check that out!
I have now gone on to a Christmas themed journal, two actually, as me and my baby are working on one together. It’s great idea for kids too, we are being messy with the paints, glitter glue and stickers. I have also added in some of his past artwork from school, another way to use these little treasures that seem to pile up endlessly…
An idea for my tarot people, if you have decks that you no longer use or resonate with, just use the imagery in your art projects! I have started another journal with fairy imagery, and I’m using a Doreen Virtue deck for that, seeing as I may have a hard time getting someone to take it… I digress.
SO, that’s it, for now, hope you are all well and enjoying the holiday season!
Well, this topic was just too important to ignore, because in the United States, today is not an ordinary day. It’s Thanksgiving! I should be excited, and battling a turkey or something right? Well…
Here’s this thing, growing up in the United States we were taught about how the Pilgrims and the Indigenous peoples sat down peacefully together for a meal, and all was well…trouble is, that’s not the truth.
2017 has been such a year of revelation, and with social media, people are able to get ideas across like never before. People are very aware of the truth behind Thanksgiving, but many choose to ignore it because it’s “negative”. Now, I am all for the sacredness of family time and a sharing a meal, that’s beside the point. The important thing is that we are aware of what this holiday really means, and what we are actually celebrating. For the Native people, what we are actually celebrating, is a genocide.
I have decided that the best way to address this was with the Vision Quest Tarot. I simply asked what I need to know about this day, and how to address this situation.
I received the Four of Earth.
To me, this says a few things. What jumps out at me is acknowledging the obvious greed of the invaders, and the desire to hoard all the resources of the people who were there first. We must remember, that this theme is continually repeating itself throughout history, and that educators especially need to get this point across, without falling into the commercialized narrative we have been sold.
I also see a need to honor Mother Earth, and know that She will provide, but not as long as we continue to hurt and rape the land as we have been for far too long.
In closing, enjoy that time with your families, but and at the same time, remember those who weren’t awarded that luxury. Above all else, teach the children the truth, so that the lessons are not lost, and so many men, women and children who were so brutally taken from us, didn’t die in vain.
If we are connected on social media, you may have seen my posts about dance.
“Yes, it is hard, but it is so worth it. You learn the way your body moves and how it works. It gives you an appreciation of yourself and your body that most women never have. You find the Goddess and she is within you. That’s what belly dancing does.”
My dear sister Susan said this when I was talking about starting Bellydance class. A couple of months in, and I realize how right she was. As I write this post, I have just recently mastered the “body wave”, one of many moves that dancers make look so easy and effortless, I can assure you, it’s not! But in practice, discoveries have been made, it’s almost like navigating a new landscape, rather than this same body I should know well after being in it for 38 years.
At the same time as my dance adventures, I had a bit of a medical crisis, which caused me intense stress for about two weeks. While all came out fine in the end, I wasn’t the same. I was put in a position that caused me to really evaluate life, and what I want. I knew I couldn’t go back to my usual ways, letting life pass me by, abandoning hopes and dreams. Life was suddenly so fleeting, I was hyper aware of my mortality, and while it scared me, it also drove me to make changes.
This is also why I have been so quiet, but I truly miss engaging with you and I hope to do that more in the future.
I now deliberately set out to do things to make me happy, and right now that is dancing. Who knows, I may end up running away with that bellydance troupe after all!